Coming out of the Closet

Four years ago, I took all of my courage and published my first book called 'Courageous Butterfly'.  I wrote about my experiences with rejection, low self-esteem, the separation of my family, my deep sadness, the loss of my son Jessy and my struggle with depression and panic disorder. I didn’t share my struggle with learning disability or dyslexia because at the time, I didn’t know how to put it into words, plus I wasn’t diagnosed for it. At 48 years of age, I took the decision to find the truth about my challenges; with writing, reading and expressing myself. People who know me now, may be surprised to hear this, but all my life I’ve felt inadequate, slow, and at times stupid.  I finally took the responsibility to see a specialist and I was shocked to hear the words, ADD, learning disability, and dyslexia. All my life I questioned my intelligence, felt so alone in my struggles, and tried every trick in the book to hide my challenges. Today at 51 years old, I am once again taking my courage to share with you the Courageous Butterfly that I am. Last month, I applied to a school program to become a French language facilitator. I had the interview last Monday and had my response the next day. They informed me that I had passed the interview successfully. Of course, I was proud of myself and pleased of my accomplishment. I am now waiting to see if there is a position for me in the Brampton/Mississauga area. My job now is to trust that life will bring me what I need.  It would be wonderful to work with young children, especially the ones who are like me struggling with words and expressing themselves. I am sharing my story to bring hope into the world, to connect with whoever needs encouragement, and self-acceptance. To all of you out there who is challenged by a condition, don’t ever give up on yourself or on your dreams.

We all have something beautiful to give, share and offer the world.

-Courageous Butterly